ok, the internet is back at my house, which like i said is really more a mental health issue than a tech issue at this point. so let’s look at things (regarding HBML) a little calmer and less rushed and less harried and more together and more community and less like draining and more like exercise. also the past few days i’ve had a lot of fun at the store goofing off and hanging out and meeting people and even getting some work done on projects, all pointing to the rational idea that i can both have the store and “go big” in other arenas at the same time and the two things indeed work together. right now if things stay their courses it looks like we’ll have enough money at the store for me to take a month off mid august – mid september, so i can travel around a little and stretch and grow and hopefully make some personal money to pay back debts accrued and purchase semi-necessary tools. then i’ll get back, kids will be back in schools, we’ll work on our publicity, see what happens. and i think i can even organize a hilarious skeleton crew to person the store while i’m away, at least part of the time anyway. also me and mel are moving to a cheaper place (near kelley square we hope) that will take some of the large strain of producing “getting by” money a little easier. OK, everyone? OK me of four days ago? OK the me that quits everything beautiful?
also, this is not me waffling, this is me in the process of thinking and living. not trying to be a drama monarch, everyone, sorry to pierce the veil.